Saturday, January 31, 2009

Brokenhearted

The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and lifts those who are crushed in spirit.

my heart is heavy for the brokenhearted.

All year long I have been dwelling on the brokenhearted, I even remember praying specifically for brokenhearted people on new year's eve.

In this unpredictable life, when things don't work out like you thought, when you question everything, when your heart breaks in two....

He knows the way you take....(Job 23)

He holds your tears in a bottle...(Psalms)

He is a shield about you and the lifter of your head...(Psalms)

He gives hope...(Romans)

those whose mind is stayed on Him, He gives perfect peace...(Isaiah 26)

So stay your mind on Him dear brokenhearted, fix your eyes on our treasure Jesus. Your strength and your heart may fail, but He is the strength of your heart and your portion forever....

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and shelter be
as long as life endures

as long as life endures....


One day, all of this will end, we will remember our tears no more....

Hold on. HOPE ON.....

Monday, January 19, 2009

A couple things....

I was cast in Lifehouse Theater's production "Ecclesiastes." It is a musical and I will be posting more about it later.


the Transformed Conference with Ray Comfort, Todd Friel, Kirk Cameron and Emeal Zwayne was at our church this weekend. It was one of the best conferences I have been to. The speakers are biblical and challenging, and really brought the heat from the pulpit.

Around 2,000 people were at our church on saturday and multiple people commented that this was the most hospitable and servant hearted church they had ever worked with. Praise God! I love our church. Must have some good leaders.........



One is my Dad....



Saturday, January 03, 2009

Wasted?

This new year's eve I went to a happenin party. Swing dancing 30's theme. There was also a time of worship to ring the new year in, and I was able to sing and play the piano in the band. I suppose the highlight of the night for me was one line, in one song we played....

He will wipe away your tears and return your wasted years.... This is our God.


Do you ever feel like you have wasted time? I do.

I hope I focus less on myself, my desires, my longings and my dreams.... and more on others. This is that place that I have wasted an extremely large amount of my time. What do I want to do? Why is nothing happening to me that I want to happen to me? It seems that any deep desire I have is not coming true.

A wise woman, my mother, once told me that pride is selfish focus on yourself. Whether it is puffing yourself up or pitying yourself.

It was my sophomore year of high school. All girls go through a self loathing period in high school in which they think nothing goes their way, everyone is prettier than them, their parents hate them, no boys like them, and the world revolves around them. Don't lie girls, you remember it. I remembering going through one of those self loathing times, and my mom told me, "You know Merea, you're being really prideful right now." WHAT?!!!!!! I hate myself, I'm not prideful!!! lol. Then she gently explained to me my unhealthy fixation on myself and MY life is selfish. I will never forget that conversation as long as I live.

It is sooooo true and we women(I say women because I've never been a man, but I'm sure they are the same) need that reminder so often. Especially in our self-loving, self-worshipping culture.

Christ died for every bitter thought and every evil deed so we have no guilt in life and no fear in death...

May we take captive every thought this year.... and watch God restore the wasted years.....

Happy New Year friends. Thanks for reading....