Well, I was just enlightened a couple of weeks ago. My students have told me about a new group of people. See there are Emo kids, Bros, Hardcore kids, and then there are scene kids. No one can really explain what a scene kid is specifically, but it seems to be a poser, someone who thinks they are a part of the "music scene" but really isn't. Yes, I know, weird.
Why do we do that? Why do we label people? Is it to make us feel better about ourselves, because we are feeling insecure inside? I think perhaps the people who label people and say they hate the other groups are the ones that need a little security themselves. Every one of us has something great to offer. God has gifted each of us with unique beauty, abilities, quirks, and feelings. How about we start a movement at ACA and try to appreciate something about everyone? Each of us is like a thread and we can weave together and become a beautiful tapestry.
For example, my sixth period class. There are so many versions of sophomores in that class and yet, we all seem to get along for the hour and 15 minutes that we are together. We can laugh about our different styles and respect the thoughts of each one. From the back packs and boy corner on the right, to the very stylish and beautiful girly girls in the middle, the lone ranger in the front, and the entire side of sophomore girl athletes on the left. So much variety and so much elegance. How can we think one is better than the other?
I am glad that labels like that are somewhat over for me. But this blog is dedicated to my not so scene student Matt Westerfield. Be who you are Matt, keep on with the unique, and here you go, a spot on my blog. You are great. (even if you are scene, because I don't even know what it is)
To Matt.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Thursday, May 17, 2007
All you need is love....
You know not many people have been blessed as much as I have with the relationships they have with their family. My family has become my favorite friends. I love hanging out with them. If I won a trip anywhere, I would probably take my sisters. My brother is not so bad himself.=)
I have also been blessed with amazing friendships. I would like to give a shout out to those who have proven to be tried and true.
Marcella Bumpus- I love you girl and do not know what I would do without your friendship. You have blessed me so much even in just the last few months. I appreciate your support and I loved that you were there before my appointment yesterday and gave me a pep talk. Thanks.
Stephanie Rogers- No matter where life takes us, I hope you know that you will always be a kindred spirit. You are a beautiful mother and I loved watching you with Hope. Don't know what I would do without our "Target phone conversations." I love you so much!
Dan and Carrie Mahaffie- who knew that I would come to love you two so much. Your faithfulness to Christ and passion for His Word have shown me so much about life. It has been a joy learning with you for the past year in our small group. You mean the world to me. May God bless you as parents to Taylor, my favorite baby in the entire world. hee hee.
Rachel Marshman- Thanks for being the most "real" follower of Christ. I love talking about our lives and I love that you can tell me the truth. Not many people do that with me and I value you for it. You have shown me so much about pursuing Godliness in everything, motherhood, being a wife and worship leader. I hate that you are in Kentucky, but I love that you enjoy it. Don't know if you knew I appreciated you this much!
Tyler Watts: Although we are so far apart, I cherish you as one of my best. I miss you and can't wait until you are coming to visit. I miss our long talks outside at night and I keep this note you wrote me in Zanzibar in my Bible. It brings be great encouragment at very hard times. Thanks for being a great guy friend who is willing to open up.
There are so many more, but I am grateful for these today. I encourage you to thank the people you love.
I have also been blessed with amazing friendships. I would like to give a shout out to those who have proven to be tried and true.
Marcella Bumpus- I love you girl and do not know what I would do without your friendship. You have blessed me so much even in just the last few months. I appreciate your support and I loved that you were there before my appointment yesterday and gave me a pep talk. Thanks.
Stephanie Rogers- No matter where life takes us, I hope you know that you will always be a kindred spirit. You are a beautiful mother and I loved watching you with Hope. Don't know what I would do without our "Target phone conversations." I love you so much!
Dan and Carrie Mahaffie- who knew that I would come to love you two so much. Your faithfulness to Christ and passion for His Word have shown me so much about life. It has been a joy learning with you for the past year in our small group. You mean the world to me. May God bless you as parents to Taylor, my favorite baby in the entire world. hee hee.
Rachel Marshman- Thanks for being the most "real" follower of Christ. I love talking about our lives and I love that you can tell me the truth. Not many people do that with me and I value you for it. You have shown me so much about pursuing Godliness in everything, motherhood, being a wife and worship leader. I hate that you are in Kentucky, but I love that you enjoy it. Don't know if you knew I appreciated you this much!
Tyler Watts: Although we are so far apart, I cherish you as one of my best. I miss you and can't wait until you are coming to visit. I miss our long talks outside at night and I keep this note you wrote me in Zanzibar in my Bible. It brings be great encouragment at very hard times. Thanks for being a great guy friend who is willing to open up.
There are so many more, but I am grateful for these today. I encourage you to thank the people you love.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
What are we here for anyway?
My wonderful home fellowship group, as our church likes to call them, is studying Ephesians. Every week someone leads and we discuss a chapter. We just finished 1 and 2. I was struck by some verses in chapter one that had never hit so hard.
"Making known to us the mystery of His will, according to His purpose, which he set forth in Christ as a plan for the fullness of time, to unite all things in Him, things in heaven and things on earth." Ephesians 1:9-10
He has made known to us what is the purpose of life! So many of us(humanity) sit and wonder what this life is all about and God has chosen us and told us the mystery. His plan is to unite all things in Him, the plan that He set forth in Christ. I just think that is awesome. Our lives are not meaningless, we don't bring meaning to our lives as some existentialists would say. God chose us to lavish His grace on, to give us wisdom and insight to the mysteries of the world! What an awesome God we serve, for He is great and worthy to be praised. I don't know if this made any sense to anybody else, but it is exciting. We know that in the end God will come through. That the temptations, sins, hurts, and sorrows of this world will end and we will be united in Him.
Sometimes when I read books, hee hee, I look on the last few pages to see if it ends the way I want it to. Like if the girl gets the guy, or the other way around, whatever. If it doesn't end the way I want then I am not interested in reading it. I know, very lame, but I do. In a mystery most of the time I wait, but sometimes I peak. I cheat. Its just my personality, I like to know if it will be worth reading. So it is kind of cool to me to be able to know what is the purpose of all this and that it will end the way that it should. Yeah I know, I am a weird woman. =)
"Making known to us the mystery of His will, according to His purpose, which he set forth in Christ as a plan for the fullness of time, to unite all things in Him, things in heaven and things on earth." Ephesians 1:9-10
He has made known to us what is the purpose of life! So many of us(humanity) sit and wonder what this life is all about and God has chosen us and told us the mystery. His plan is to unite all things in Him, the plan that He set forth in Christ. I just think that is awesome. Our lives are not meaningless, we don't bring meaning to our lives as some existentialists would say. God chose us to lavish His grace on, to give us wisdom and insight to the mysteries of the world! What an awesome God we serve, for He is great and worthy to be praised. I don't know if this made any sense to anybody else, but it is exciting. We know that in the end God will come through. That the temptations, sins, hurts, and sorrows of this world will end and we will be united in Him.
Sometimes when I read books, hee hee, I look on the last few pages to see if it ends the way I want it to. Like if the girl gets the guy, or the other way around, whatever. If it doesn't end the way I want then I am not interested in reading it. I know, very lame, but I do. In a mystery most of the time I wait, but sometimes I peak. I cheat. Its just my personality, I like to know if it will be worth reading. So it is kind of cool to me to be able to know what is the purpose of all this and that it will end the way that it should. Yeah I know, I am a weird woman. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
Another year has gone by...
I am a year older today. It's exciting and I am inching my way toward another decade, but still a few years away. One student approached me today and said, "Don't worry Miss Price, you are only as old as you feel!" I laughed a little. I wanted to say: "I AM YOUNG, not just feel young!"
There are so many things to look forward to these days. As I reflect upon the last 2o and a few=) years, I realize that I have changed as a person in so many ways. I remember this one moment in my sophomore year of high school, a good ten years ago, when I was sitting in Mr. Perry's english class, his door was open, it was a beautiful day, sunny, soft breeze. I remember exactly what I was thinking. "I wonder where I will be in 5 years, in 10 years." If someone would have been able to look into the future and told me where I would be, I wouldn't have believed it. I have had to opportunity to travel 4 of the 7 continents, get my Bachelor's degree, become a dental assistant, and a high school history teacher. Sometimes I get into a rut and begin to think I am leading a pretty boring life, and then I actually look at my life and realize I am just being ignorant. I praise the Lord for the things I have gotten to do and people I have gotten to know. Its a wonderful life. Its a Happy Birthday indeed.
There are so many things to look forward to these days. As I reflect upon the last 2o and a few=) years, I realize that I have changed as a person in so many ways. I remember this one moment in my sophomore year of high school, a good ten years ago, when I was sitting in Mr. Perry's english class, his door was open, it was a beautiful day, sunny, soft breeze. I remember exactly what I was thinking. "I wonder where I will be in 5 years, in 10 years." If someone would have been able to look into the future and told me where I would be, I wouldn't have believed it. I have had to opportunity to travel 4 of the 7 continents, get my Bachelor's degree, become a dental assistant, and a high school history teacher. Sometimes I get into a rut and begin to think I am leading a pretty boring life, and then I actually look at my life and realize I am just being ignorant. I praise the Lord for the things I have gotten to do and people I have gotten to know. Its a wonderful life. Its a Happy Birthday indeed.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Match.com
So. Another thing, since people only seem to read and comment the blogs I write about singleness, I thought I would write another one.
I can't tell you how many people have told me to go online. "Oh try Match.com, and EHarmony is a christian one." it is the only way to find someone these days."
I know plenty of great, Godly people who have tried those type of things. I just cannot see myself doing that. Whatever happened to single guys asking single girls to go out and have coffee or something. So many people in the Christian community are against dating. I think maybe us girls expect too much, and the guys are intimidated by that. Or do guys expect too much and girls are intimidated by that? Anyway, people say that online dating is a safe way of getting to know someone. How the heck is the internet safe?
Just wondering what everyone else thought. It seems dangerous, it seems desperate, meanwhile, I am working on the whole contentment thing. It doesn't seem like something content people do. I have pretty much decided on not doing online dating, but what do you think?
I can't tell you how many people have told me to go online. "Oh try Match.com, and EHarmony is a christian one." it is the only way to find someone these days."
I know plenty of great, Godly people who have tried those type of things. I just cannot see myself doing that. Whatever happened to single guys asking single girls to go out and have coffee or something. So many people in the Christian community are against dating. I think maybe us girls expect too much, and the guys are intimidated by that. Or do guys expect too much and girls are intimidated by that? Anyway, people say that online dating is a safe way of getting to know someone. How the heck is the internet safe?
Just wondering what everyone else thought. It seems dangerous, it seems desperate, meanwhile, I am working on the whole contentment thing. It doesn't seem like something content people do. I have pretty much decided on not doing online dating, but what do you think?
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Another day in the life of high school education...
I am a teacher. Everyday I love my job and everyday I hate my job. I suppose every job is like that. I have come to the conclusion that if the love moments outweigh the hate moments then I should say at all times, "I love my job." Everyday I come in and see 125 sophomores staring up at me ready to hear what I have to say. . .
Sometimes I get to be funny and I love when they laugh, shake their heads, roll their eyes at my dorkiness, and exclaim "I love this class!"
Sometimes I get to be firm, showing them when they are out of line, punishing them for doing something they shouldn't have, helping them learn how to respect.
Sometimes I get to be sad, like when I tell the story of the Atlantic Slave Trade or the millions of jews that were murdered. They sit in silence, listening, imagining, thinking.
Sometimes I get to be serious, discuss what is important in making a political decision, hearing them say what they think, challenging them to think deeper. Asking them what is really important in life, to different people, to God?
Sometimes I get to be real and tell them that my friend has died, I loved him, I cry and they encourage me.
Maybe it is them I love. Because they are there everyday smiling at me, saying hello, asking me for advice, laughing with me, learning with me and just being them.
Yes, yes I love my job. Because of them.
Sometimes I get to be funny and I love when they laugh, shake their heads, roll their eyes at my dorkiness, and exclaim "I love this class!"
Sometimes I get to be firm, showing them when they are out of line, punishing them for doing something they shouldn't have, helping them learn how to respect.
Sometimes I get to be sad, like when I tell the story of the Atlantic Slave Trade or the millions of jews that were murdered. They sit in silence, listening, imagining, thinking.
Sometimes I get to be serious, discuss what is important in making a political decision, hearing them say what they think, challenging them to think deeper. Asking them what is really important in life, to different people, to God?
Sometimes I get to be real and tell them that my friend has died, I loved him, I cry and they encourage me.
Maybe it is them I love. Because they are there everyday smiling at me, saying hello, asking me for advice, laughing with me, learning with me and just being them.
Yes, yes I love my job. Because of them.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
"So, are you dating anyone?" No "Oh, well thats okay" Yes, yes I know.
So, for the 147 billionth time today, Valentine's Day, I had someone tell me: "You know that when I finally realized that I was content being single, God gave me my husband/wife. All you have to do is tell God, 'I am content being single' and you will really see him work in your life."
Hold up, wait a minute. WHATEVER. Just because people are single does not mean that we have not achieved some supernatural, super christian state where we can now recieve what God has been trying to give us, BUT, we just weren't content. I love(sarcastic) how people think that they earned or deserved the gift of marriage. Well, what about the GIFT of singleness? and I am so sure that peole who get married right out of college experienced true contentment with their singleness. Oh really? During college, surounded by all your closest friends, a few hundred peers, learning, and having the time of your life you experienced what REAL singleness is. It must have been so hard to come to grips with living single for the rest of your life. So in that moment of contentment you thought you achieved this forever state of "no matter what comes my way, I am content with singleness." Try being out of college for a few years, heck, living in your thirties, and handling most issues on your own.
ANYWAY, my whole point is... I hope that we singles realize that it is a gift for the time being. Amy Carmicheal, the Apostle Paul and many others who remained single their entire lives were so much more effective in the kingdom than many married people have been. Not that it is a comparison. One of my deepest longings is to be married. I really want to. Marriage is a good thing, and I can't wait, if God so chooses. And I have many respectable married friends and I am more than happy for them. I just want people to realize that single does not equal discontentment. Yes, I have times of discontentment, just like married girls, and I have times where I accept my position and submit my will to God. Lets encourage singles instead of feel sorry for them, lets learn from singles instead of think they have nothing to say, lets all appreciate God's choice for our lives and Seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you.
Hold up, wait a minute. WHATEVER. Just because people are single does not mean that we have not achieved some supernatural, super christian state where we can now recieve what God has been trying to give us, BUT, we just weren't content. I love(sarcastic) how people think that they earned or deserved the gift of marriage. Well, what about the GIFT of singleness? and I am so sure that peole who get married right out of college experienced true contentment with their singleness. Oh really? During college, surounded by all your closest friends, a few hundred peers, learning, and having the time of your life you experienced what REAL singleness is. It must have been so hard to come to grips with living single for the rest of your life. So in that moment of contentment you thought you achieved this forever state of "no matter what comes my way, I am content with singleness." Try being out of college for a few years, heck, living in your thirties, and handling most issues on your own.
ANYWAY, my whole point is... I hope that we singles realize that it is a gift for the time being. Amy Carmicheal, the Apostle Paul and many others who remained single their entire lives were so much more effective in the kingdom than many married people have been. Not that it is a comparison. One of my deepest longings is to be married. I really want to. Marriage is a good thing, and I can't wait, if God so chooses. And I have many respectable married friends and I am more than happy for them. I just want people to realize that single does not equal discontentment. Yes, I have times of discontentment, just like married girls, and I have times where I accept my position and submit my will to God. Lets encourage singles instead of feel sorry for them, lets learn from singles instead of think they have nothing to say, lets all appreciate God's choice for our lives and Seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Connected Soles
My friend Tyler and met for breakfast the day he left for Vietnam 2 years ago. We were talking about the sacrifice of leaving home, for the advancment of the Kingdom and decided that we would trade flip flops. We traded and vowed that everytime we wear each pair of shoes we would pray for one another. And since in Southern Cal you wear flip flops almost everyday, even on dressy occasions, it worked. I am reminded of Tyler often when I look at my feet. It reminds me of the verse in scripture that says, "how beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news." Here in Socal and Vietnam.
BUT, something terrible happened to the pair of sandals that I had given Tyler. Yesterday I opened my email and read a title of an email from Ty. It read: "Our friendship is in peril!" I thought, OH NO! I opened the email and to my surprise Tyler had sent a picture of the broken shoe and a message. I was saddened. Our footwear friendship, our slipper solidarity, our sandal sentiment (Tyler's description) had come to an end.
Even though our our slipper solidarity has ended, Tyler and I will remain friends and make an effort to pray without the shoes. I miss my friend, and thank God that friendship has been given to us, friendship that goes beyond the durability of flip flop sandals.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Things I love, in no particular order.
I love...
God and His Word
My immediate family
a good movie
a good book
laughter
tears
feelings
singing
Mimi's Cafe
black humor
Starbucks coffee
decorating
Christmas time
Choral music
New York City
different languages
little kids
French Toast with syrup
Pizza and Rootbeer
Family time
Hangin with my parents
My Dad's sermon
My mom's laugh and her cheerfulness
Church, Sundays
my church body
playing the guitar
walks
swimming
sitting in the Cloud's spa at night when it is cold in Beaumont
The ocean
The mountains
snow
skiing
waverunners
sailing
Mel and Dorothy's and bbq
Salad and Breadsticks from the Olive Garden
Memories
Driving in my Jeep Liberty
Talking with Jenni, Art and Han
laughing at Madea with Ally
My boys Rico and Big Game James
Rachel Marshman
and singing with Rachel Marshman
Yada Yada(its are band name, lol)
Sleep
My students
Especially the 4 muskateers, DB, T Nibbly, Curtis, and Drew
Talking about God with my students
especially Kristin
There are so many things in life to love. I am very blessed. This list could go on for 1,000 pages.
Friday, January 05, 2007
1,470 Years ago...
1,470 years ago a church was built in the east. I just visited that church. It is very rare to look at something that old, let alone behold a building that old.
Yes, the Hagia Sophia. Amazing. I am in Istanbul, Turkey which used to be Constantinople. It is hard to believe that I looked at a building that was finished in the year 537 AD.
So, anyway, I had a great New Years, visiting my sister who lives here in Istanbul. How did you spend your New Year?
Yes, the Hagia Sophia. Amazing. I am in Istanbul, Turkey which used to be Constantinople. It is hard to believe that I looked at a building that was finished in the year 537 AD.
So, anyway, I had a great New Years, visiting my sister who lives here in Istanbul. How did you spend your New Year?
Sunday, December 24, 2006
God is odd
Being humble is exalted.
Bathing in His blood is good.
He is just, but saved us.
He is God, and became a man.
The King of Kings, but born in a stable.
Owner of everything, but nowhere to lay His head.
Trillions of sins, one act of obedience.
Hater of sins, lover of sinners.
We must die to live forever.
Eternal life, Righteousness, Victory. All things He imputed to us.
Praise God His ways are not our ways and His thoughts are not our thoughts!
Merry Christmas. May you humble yourself, bathe in blood and die.
Bathing in His blood is good.
He is just, but saved us.
He is God, and became a man.
The King of Kings, but born in a stable.
Owner of everything, but nowhere to lay His head.
Trillions of sins, one act of obedience.
Hater of sins, lover of sinners.
We must die to live forever.
Eternal life, Righteousness, Victory. All things He imputed to us.
Praise God His ways are not our ways and His thoughts are not our thoughts!
Merry Christmas. May you humble yourself, bathe in blood and die.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
The coolness of my friend, Lindsay Cooper...
I have a friend. Her name is Coop. We never see each other, but will remain close forever. She challenges me, I miss her.
I wonder if Coop has ever thought about this before...
Upon Christmas season coming and arriving, I have begun my annual Christmas music listening ritual. This year is a bit different, and I have decided to think about the words of Christmas Carols. They are rich with meaning. I have know these things my whole life and sometimes missed it...
God rest ye merry gentlemen, let nothing you dismay, remember Christ our Savior was born on Christmas day, to save us all from Satan's power, when we were gone astray.
O TIDINGS OF COMFORT and JOY!
I like most of us during the holiday season begin to focus on what is joyful and comfortable. Being with family and friends, sitting by the fire, watching the opening of presents, the decorations all over the streets and homes, joyful, comfortable.
Do we remember that Christ our Savior came and saved us "far as the curse is found(last verse of Joy to the World)." We are cursed with sin and death, headed to eternal separation from Him, and He saved us and those "far as the curse is found." He saved me, loved me, and made me righteous. Oh the depths of the riches of Christ! What message brings more comfort and joy?
Merry Christmas Linds. Lets do coffee.
Merea
I wonder if Coop has ever thought about this before...
Upon Christmas season coming and arriving, I have begun my annual Christmas music listening ritual. This year is a bit different, and I have decided to think about the words of Christmas Carols. They are rich with meaning. I have know these things my whole life and sometimes missed it...
God rest ye merry gentlemen, let nothing you dismay, remember Christ our Savior was born on Christmas day, to save us all from Satan's power, when we were gone astray.
O TIDINGS OF COMFORT and JOY!
I like most of us during the holiday season begin to focus on what is joyful and comfortable. Being with family and friends, sitting by the fire, watching the opening of presents, the decorations all over the streets and homes, joyful, comfortable.
Do we remember that Christ our Savior came and saved us "far as the curse is found(last verse of Joy to the World)." We are cursed with sin and death, headed to eternal separation from Him, and He saved us and those "far as the curse is found." He saved me, loved me, and made me righteous. Oh the depths of the riches of Christ! What message brings more comfort and joy?
Merry Christmas Linds. Lets do coffee.
Merea
Saturday, October 28, 2006
I love Jeff and Rachel Marshman
I just wanted to share with the blog world that I love Jeff and Rachel Marshman. Rachel has been an amazing friend to me in the last year. Jeff, Rachel and I have played music together, led worship places together, ate dinner on Thursday nights together, started a small group at our church, and really had fun. Don't know what I'd do without them.
It is awesome how God provides you with the people you need in your life to encourage you and just talk about the faithfulness of God. I appreciate them for listening when I had to share some life frustrations and I appreciate them for rejoicing with me.
Their 1 year old daughter Georgia is the greatest kid in the world. Maybe I could be an adopted aunt or something.
It is awesome how God provides you with the people you need in your life to encourage you and just talk about the faithfulness of God. I appreciate them for listening when I had to share some life frustrations and I appreciate them for rejoicing with me.
Their 1 year old daughter Georgia is the greatest kid in the world. Maybe I could be an adopted aunt or something.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
A chance to forgive! Why didn't I think of that?
I read an article today about heartache and how some people say things that hurt us. These things that are said are not meant to hurt, but for some reason they linger around and pierce our feelings. We become discouraged or even angry. The article was saying that we should see these things as opportunities to forgive people. WOW. Why didn't I think of that? Sometimes I wonder at the negativity in my heart and surprise myself with how bitter I can become in a short second. I am not a bitter person, really. I am happy and people would describe me that way, why didn't I think of that?
Monday, October 23, 2006
Normal: You and I
I can't wait until its normal.
You and I together.
Till I can't sleep when you're away.
When I know what you will say.
I can't wait until its normal
To kiss you goodnight, good morning and goodbye
and you holding my hand when I cry.
I can't wait until its normal
Each holiday we spend together
Through all the changes in the weather
I can't wait until its normal
when we forget what its like to be apart
and we knew it from the very start.
I can't wait until its normal
you and I together.
You and I together.
Till I can't sleep when you're away.
When I know what you will say.
I can't wait until its normal
To kiss you goodnight, good morning and goodbye
and you holding my hand when I cry.
I can't wait until its normal
Each holiday we spend together
Through all the changes in the weather
I can't wait until its normal
when we forget what its like to be apart
and we knew it from the very start.
I can't wait until its normal
you and I together.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Disapointment
Does anyone ever write about disapointment? I feel like blogs and myspace are all efforts to show everybody how amazingly creative you are and how eloquent you can be with your description.
Well.... right now in my life I am disapointed. Probably ultimately with God. I will just get right to the point, don't blame anything else to make myself feel more spiritual, but realize that it is Him I am disapointed with. Not because He has done anything that I should be disapointed with, for He is ever faithful. i guess what I am trying to say is that in my own self centered way of thinking, I am disapointed. Why has He not allowed certain things to happen to me? Why did He allow me to struggle with my health? Why do I feel like the only one who struggles with this? Why do I feel lonely? Why are all my friends married and having babies, while I continue down the path of single and professional? not that I am ready for that change in my life, but still. I feel different.
Why can't I snap out of it? Why can't I realize that He knows the path of life and in His presence there are treasures forever? Why can't I commit myself to His perfect purpose and be completely okay with it? and as you are reading, don't act like you have never asked these questions. Don't act like you do not struggle with this as well. I think we all struggle with God over our own desires sometimes. It is definately not excused, it is sin.
I am sinful. He is wonderful. I fall short. He surpasses comprehension. I am self-consumed. He sent His Son. I am struggling to make it. He is conforming me to Himself. Thank you Lord for promising to finish the work You started in us. Thank you Lord for Your mercies that are new every morning. Thank You for Your Word that is alive and pierces to the heart of me. Thank you for caring so much that You discipline. Thank You for being silent, so I understand Your presence even more. Thank You for loving Son, who died for me.
Well.... right now in my life I am disapointed. Probably ultimately with God. I will just get right to the point, don't blame anything else to make myself feel more spiritual, but realize that it is Him I am disapointed with. Not because He has done anything that I should be disapointed with, for He is ever faithful. i guess what I am trying to say is that in my own self centered way of thinking, I am disapointed. Why has He not allowed certain things to happen to me? Why did He allow me to struggle with my health? Why do I feel like the only one who struggles with this? Why do I feel lonely? Why are all my friends married and having babies, while I continue down the path of single and professional? not that I am ready for that change in my life, but still. I feel different.
Why can't I snap out of it? Why can't I realize that He knows the path of life and in His presence there are treasures forever? Why can't I commit myself to His perfect purpose and be completely okay with it? and as you are reading, don't act like you have never asked these questions. Don't act like you do not struggle with this as well. I think we all struggle with God over our own desires sometimes. It is definately not excused, it is sin.
I am sinful. He is wonderful. I fall short. He surpasses comprehension. I am self-consumed. He sent His Son. I am struggling to make it. He is conforming me to Himself. Thank you Lord for promising to finish the work You started in us. Thank you Lord for Your mercies that are new every morning. Thank You for Your Word that is alive and pierces to the heart of me. Thank you for caring so much that You discipline. Thank You for being silent, so I understand Your presence even more. Thank You for loving Son, who died for me.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
new york state of mind
I went to New York City for the first time last December. It had been my dream for a long time to visit the city, and yes, it surpassed all my expectations. I want to live there for awhile, attend the Brooklyn Tabernacle Church, and teach english to people who don't know it.
The city is the best and even better at Christmas time. My three friends and I decided to go and my father has a friend who works at a small theatre off Times Square. He let us stay there for an unreal price. Thanks to my dad's connection.
I don't know what was my favorite, seeing Central Park, ice skating in Bryant park while looking right up at the Empire State building, seeing 3 Broadway shows, the Brooklyn Tab Choir, the subway entertainment, or simply just being in the city.
Yes, I can truly say....I love New York.
The city is the best and even better at Christmas time. My three friends and I decided to go and my father has a friend who works at a small theatre off Times Square. He let us stay there for an unreal price. Thanks to my dad's connection.
I don't know what was my favorite, seeing Central Park, ice skating in Bryant park while looking right up at the Empire State building, seeing 3 Broadway shows, the Brooklyn Tab Choir, the subway entertainment, or simply just being in the city.
Yes, I can truly say....I love New York.
Friday, September 29, 2006
Oh to have seasons...
So I live in Southern California, land of sunshine and summertime all year 'round. I wonder what it would be like to live in a place that changes with the seasons. The cool, crisp autumn air. Watching the leaves change and fall to the ground. Sweaters, scarfs, and jeans. The smoke of fireplaces and Pumpkin Spices. Football weather, college sweatshirts. Backyard football games (without sweating profusely), diving into a raked up pile of leaves. Harvest festivals, hayrides, pumpkin carving. Hot chocolate at a Friday night football game. Light jacket requirement.
No....I go back to the tank top wearing, sunglass wearing, hot and sunny, southern California autumn. Where I walk outside after a long air conditioned day and gasp at the warmth I feel in the middle of October. So I turn the AC on, get under a blanket, make some spiced tea and dream of seasons to come.
No....I go back to the tank top wearing, sunglass wearing, hot and sunny, southern California autumn. Where I walk outside after a long air conditioned day and gasp at the warmth I feel in the middle of October. So I turn the AC on, get under a blanket, make some spiced tea and dream of seasons to come.
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