Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Our beautiful bridegroom...

this past weekend I flew to Colorado Springs to be in one my best friend's weddings. Amy Bieker. All four of my best friends from college were there and I was more than excited to see them. We stayed in a hotel together. Me and the three pregnant girls, Renee, Marcella and Stephanie. Because of how much water I drink and my need to use the restroom every half hour, I fit right in. ha ha h ha hahahahahahah.
Anyway, we had the best time. It is so good to be with women that are like these women. They make me laugh, they listen to me, they love me through my imperfections and they laugh at me. It was so good to see these women. God has blessed me beyond measure with each of their friendship and I admire each of their commitment to their families, husbands, and most of all their Lord.

One particular thing that stood out to me this weekend was my friend Amy. She was radiant. She was calm, beautiful and in love with her now husband. I'll never forget the way Amy looked when she walked down the aisle, she had such a beautiful countenance. In all outward appearances she looked drop dead gorgeous, but what really stood out was her character and obvious anticipation as she was escorted down the aisle. She never took her eyes off Casey, her groom. It was like he was the only one in the room. It was a gentle reminder to me of my Savior, my bridegroom. I thought about what the relationship of marriage illustrates for us. Our Jesus is our bridegroom, and we are His bride. I hope I look upon Him with anticipation for our union, I hope I look upon Him with such a longing for His presence that it radiates off my countenance, I hope I look upon Him to love, serve and delight in. For He has pursued us, He has loved us with an everlasting love, He has seen our nakedness and ashes and He washed and adorned us. My Kinsmen Redeemer, my bridegroom, my love.

To Amy, for showing me who Christ is and loving me through these many years. I love you with all my heart and rejoice that you have been allowed a marriage relationship, use it to understand and love Jesus even more. Many blessings.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


Recently I have been reminded of what it means. I think to truly experience forgiveness we need to be broken over our wrongdoing, our sin. Understand that we are imperfect. Each on of us. We fail, we fall, we let people down, we get angry, we make ourselves the most important person in the universe, and we sin.

I just wanted to say that I'm thankful for it. God looked upon our sinful, filthy, detestable souls and demonstrated mercy. He punished Jesus for our sin. We do not have to be punished for it. Do we understand that?!!!!! He punished Jesus for it, not us, Jesus. To love us, for His glory. I am overwhelmed. Oh the deep deep love of Jesus. Oh the deep, deep love.

No guilt in life, no fear in death, this the power of Christ in me.

He is mighty to save.

We should be the same with one another. Love one another, serve one another, forgive one another.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Until there's no one left who has ever known us apart...

There is an off broadway musical called "The Last Five Years." Here is my favorite song. Its called "the Next Ten Minutes." You don't have to read, if you're not a romantic. I am, so are my many friends=) So sappy, but so beautiful, the music is even better. =)

The Boy, Jamie, sings:

Will you share your life with me

For the next ten minutes?

For the next ten minutes

We can handle that

We could watch the waves

We could watch the sky

Or just sit and wait

As the time ticks by

And if we make it till then

Can I ask you again

For another ten?

And if you in turn agree

To the next ten minutes

And the next ten minutes

Till the morning comes

Then just holding you

Might compel me to

Ask you for more

There are so many lives I want to share with you

I will never be complete until I do


I'm not always on time

Please don't expect that from me

I will be late

But if you can just wait

I will make it eventually

Not like it's in my control

Not like I'm proud of the fact

But anything other than being exactly on time

I can do

I don't know why people run

I don't know why things fall through

I don't know how anybody survives in this life

Without someone like you

I could protect and preserve

I could say no and goodbye

But why, Jamie, why?

I want to be your wife

I want to bear your child

I want to die

Knowing I

Had a long, full life in your arms

That I can do

Forever, with you


Will you share your life with me

For the next ten lifetimes?


Till there's no one left

Who has ever known us apart

Sunday, August 10, 2008

I got all my sistas and me

Vanessa took these, she is so good. Boy, these bridesmaids were gorgeous. I had to deal with some serious self esteem issues, ha ha. Just kiddin. Pictures of the most gorgeous of all, the bride, will come later. Don't have any. But she chose some awesome colors.

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

Pigmented Villonodular Synovitis

I went in for surgery today. The surgeon found out I had this disease in my knee. Apparently, there were a bunch of little benign tumors growing in my right knee and causing a lot of problems. I am here at my parents house recovering for the next couple days. Those of you who texted me, gave me little flower plants(Colleen), called me, and prayed for me. Thank you so much. My Dad and Mom are excellent caregivers.