Saturday, October 28, 2006

I love Jeff and Rachel Marshman

I just wanted to share with the blog world that I love Jeff and Rachel Marshman. Rachel has been an amazing friend to me in the last year. Jeff, Rachel and I have played music together, led worship places together, ate dinner on Thursday nights together, started a small group at our church, and really had fun. Don't know what I'd do without them.
It is awesome how God provides you with the people you need in your life to encourage you and just talk about the faithfulness of God. I appreciate them for listening when I had to share some life frustrations and I appreciate them for rejoicing with me.
Their 1 year old daughter Georgia is the greatest kid in the world. Maybe I could be an adopted aunt or something.

How to save a life

I love that song by the Fray. Just saying so.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

A chance to forgive! Why didn't I think of that?

I read an article today about heartache and how some people say things that hurt us. These things that are said are not meant to hurt, but for some reason they linger around and pierce our feelings. We become discouraged or even angry. The article was saying that we should see these things as opportunities to forgive people. WOW. Why didn't I think of that? Sometimes I wonder at the negativity in my heart and surprise myself with how bitter I can become in a short second. I am not a bitter person, really. I am happy and people would describe me that way, why didn't I think of that?

Monday, October 23, 2006

Normal: You and I

I can't wait until its normal.
You and I together.
Till I can't sleep when you're away.
When I know what you will say.
I can't wait until its normal
To kiss you goodnight, good morning and goodbye
and you holding my hand when I cry.
I can't wait until its normal
Each holiday we spend together
Through all the changes in the weather
I can't wait until its normal
when we forget what its like to be apart
and we knew it from the very start.
I can't wait until its normal
you and I together.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006


Does anyone ever write about disapointment? I feel like blogs and myspace are all efforts to show everybody how amazingly creative you are and how eloquent you can be with your description.
Well.... right now in my life I am disapointed. Probably ultimately with God. I will just get right to the point, don't blame anything else to make myself feel more spiritual, but realize that it is Him I am disapointed with. Not because He has done anything that I should be disapointed with, for He is ever faithful. i guess what I am trying to say is that in my own self centered way of thinking, I am disapointed. Why has He not allowed certain things to happen to me? Why did He allow me to struggle with my health? Why do I feel like the only one who struggles with this? Why do I feel lonely? Why are all my friends married and having babies, while I continue down the path of single and professional? not that I am ready for that change in my life, but still. I feel different.

Why can't I snap out of it? Why can't I realize that He knows the path of life and in His presence there are treasures forever? Why can't I commit myself to His perfect purpose and be completely okay with it? and as you are reading, don't act like you have never asked these questions. Don't act like you do not struggle with this as well. I think we all struggle with God over our own desires sometimes. It is definately not excused, it is sin.

I am sinful. He is wonderful. I fall short. He surpasses comprehension. I am self-consumed. He sent His Son. I am struggling to make it. He is conforming me to Himself. Thank you Lord for promising to finish the work You started in us. Thank you Lord for Your mercies that are new every morning. Thank You for Your Word that is alive and pierces to the heart of me. Thank you for caring so much that You discipline. Thank You for being silent, so I understand Your presence even more. Thank You for loving Son, who died for me.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

new york state of mind

I went to New York City for the first time last December. It had been my dream for a long time to visit the city, and yes, it surpassed all my expectations. I want to live there for awhile, attend the Brooklyn Tabernacle Church, and teach english to people who don't know it.

The city is the best and even better at Christmas time. My three friends and I decided to go and my father has a friend who works at a small theatre off Times Square. He let us stay there for an unreal price. Thanks to my dad's connection.

I don't know what was my favorite, seeing Central Park, ice skating in Bryant park while looking right up at the Empire State building, seeing 3 Broadway shows, the Brooklyn Tab Choir, the subway entertainment, or simply just being in the city.

Yes, I can truly say....I love New York.